Bye bye internet. Will have to start to make my way home earlier coz of the crappy tube decided not to work properly today, and for the fact that I am running around in London in a t-shirt and berms and my faithful sandles. Good. Act hero this morning, din bring jacket along. serves me right.

Will be going to manchester tomorrow morning and only coming back late at night. Oh, shit, just realised that if the dammed tube don want to work at the same spots as today, that means that I will have no way to get to the bloody train station, unless I take a black cab. I think all these transport ppl have some dodgy scheme to rip us off one, making sure that we have no other sane and reasonable way to get from point A to point B, and that they have just recently raised cab prices.

Well done. Anyways, my friend seems to be havign a great time playing with the digital camera.

Finger aching through too much typing today liao. Managed to spend hours and hours on ICQ lite with friends at home. Funny how come no one ICQ me when I am home, btu start tokign to me only after i have left. Hiya, meybe that explains why we always have nice things to say about ppl that passed away AFTER they are gone but hate them like mad when they are sitll alive. Hopefully, when I die, people actually dont curse and spit on my grave. Anyway, as mother always say, "Die already still say nice things for what? When alive treat them like shit, die then regret, too no point, too late liao!"

Hmm, have gone missing for some time. Was having a bad week and the thought of having to make my way back to London just made things worse, not to mention that everyone will be in Singapore and no one is in London. Also, there is chronic lack of inspiration on what to write. Have been reading some other blogs and I find that mine is quite crap, or should i say very crap, filled with complains and the boliaoness of my pathetic existence. Anyways, I am stuck back in London now, without nearby internet access. There are like over 10 terminals downstairs of my hall but cannot use. They are on and ready but No.... they have to close the cafeteria and then lock them up inside, in full view with the glass panels and all that, but not allowing me to have a go at them. Am supposed to have LAN connection in my hall room too, but then, need to find someone to get it set up for me and, well, can't seem to find the person. So close, yet so far. the feeling is horrible. I end up having to take the tube and travel to north London to use my friend's comp at his place, and not that I always want to complain about the dammed tube, but its not working between the stations I need are out of commission.

Need to find some inspiration on something or the other to write on. Every time, I am not online, I seem to have ideas of what I want to write about and get really inspired to write, but the moment I come online, I just stone and feel lost. Someone give me some suggestions!!!!

I am so dissappionted in myself today.
Thought I was pretty smart and started deleting stuff from my comp to clear up space.
This lappie is like over 3 years old and seriously short fo space lor.
Anyways,
I managed to delete some stupid windows files and all the cookies, such that
1) My windows cannot start properly.
I get the blue error thingie needing me to press space bar to abandon and continue to load windows thingie 2 times
2) Some windows searching for lost link thingie that has an .exe extension.
3) My internet thingies lost all their passwords and ID that i have trouble trying to remember all the different passwords and ID that i use, and the book that i write all of them in is in UK.

Well Done!
Serve myself right.
Trying to act as if i know what I am doing.
computer idiot trying to fiddle with software....
Argh!

i think i have given up on blogger.
It seems that everything that i put up will not come up until about 2 to 3 days later,
if it comes up at all.
I am still stuck with hayfever that does not seem to subside unless i go into an air conditioned room.
Life is getting frustating.
I need to find some games to play.
AND FAST!

Wrote this quite some time ago for a friend. Decided to put it up.....
Dedicated to *you know who you are*.

Attracted like a moth to a flame,
only to be burnt by the fire,
My heart yearns only for her,
My life she controls with that power.

The proimal instincts, the deepest desires,
Sinister darkenss controlling emotion admire,
Arising from my cave not for any other,
But to sacrifice myself on her favourite pyre.

Pain and pleasure are like twins of one another,
Lust after them choice we have no other,
Maimed in our quest to fufuil our inner desires,
Willing are we, like moths burinig in fire.

Eh.
The thing is missing again.
Argh
Whats wrong with blogger?????
Duh.
If this keeps up,
How am I expected to write daily when i update it daily but the publishing seems to take like a few days to pop up on my comp.
Or is it just my connection in Singapore.
Anyone got any ideas whats wrong?

7/11/2002 11:03:46 AM | Jin ]
Rights.
Have been talking to many friends since and erm, actually paused and did some thinking.
Ooh...
Me thinks.
That itself sounds like a joke.
But whatever.

Blood is thicker than water.
(ya ya ya, we all know that)
Loyality is thicker than blood.
(now thats new)

Have you ever had a friend that was so close to you that you would do almost anything for?
A buddy that you grew up with, and shared so many trials with.
Soem of us will be blessed with such friends and some of us have not met ours yet.
That itself does not really matter a lot.
When we meet them we will know it.
Its a feeling thing.
It may not start well, you may start as enemies or you may always be fighting, but one day, you will wake up and suddenly realise that this friend means so much to you. Its a "feeling" thing.Ya, feeling thing. I always use that as an excuse for everything that I seem to be unable to put to words.
But that is exactly the point.
Loyality is thicker than water.
If you had such a friend, you would agree with me that loyality is thicker than water.
He may not mean as much to you as your sister or your brother, but you want to share everything that you have with him. You share secrets and stories with him that you will never tell your cousins.
Meybe you may not reaslise it that such a person is around you.
Take a break from your hectic life and you will realise that you have such friends.
And when the opportunity is still there,
Tell them how much they mean to you.
Before its too late.
And I want to say thanks to the ones that I have.
You people know who you are.
Thanks Guys.

Rights.
Have been talking to many friends since and erm, actually paused and did some thinking.
Ooh...
Me thinks.
That itself sounds like a joke.
But whatever.

Blood is thicker than water.
(ya ya ya, we all know that)
Loyality is thicker than blood.
(now thats new)

Have you ever had a friend that was so close to you that you would do almost anything for?
A buddy that you grew up with, and shared so many trials with.
Soem of us will be blessed with such friends and some of us have not met ours yet.
That itself does not really matter a lot.
When we meet them we will know it.
Its a feeling thing.
It may not start well, you may start as enemies or you may always be fighting, but one day, you will wake up and suddenly realise that this friend means so much to you. Its a "feeling" thing.Ya, feeling thing. I always use that as an excuse for everything that I seem to be unable to put to words.
But that is exactly the point.
Loyality is thicker than water.
If you had such a friend, you would agree with me that loyality is thicker than water.
He may not mean as much to you as your sister or your brother, but you want to share everything that you have with him. You share secrets and stories with him that you will never tell your cousins.
Meybe you may not reaslise it that such a person is around you.
Take a break from your hectic life and you will realise that you have such friends.
And when the opportunity is still there,
Tell them how much they mean to you.
Before its too late.
And I want to say thanks to the ones that I have.
You people know who you are.
Thanks Guys.

Ha!
It finally works.
I think i am a little addicted to this.
Have to come in just to crap a bit even if i am not doing anything.
Have lots to tok about now, but have to go and try to call someone and hopefully she not sleeping yet.
Ta~
got to go.
Should TRY to sleep in the night instead from 9 am to 7 pm in the day.

Argh!!
Why does it not come out.
What is wrong with it?

Rights.
BLogger has been a little weird for the past two nights.
It seem so slow and unable to load anything much at all.
Argh.
Think I shall not waste too much of my time here tonight.
Cant see my page,
Cant see my friends pages.
Goodnight to all.

Hiya
Messed up my scheldue and managed to irritate almost all my friends.
but only have 2 words to describe the whole day in summary.
VERY HAPPY!!!
and here's homer singing to me joy.

Hiya
Messed up my scheldue and managed to irritate almost all my friends.
but only have 2 words to describe the whole day in summary.
VERY HAPPY!!!
and here's homer singing to me joy.

Its good to be back.
The weather is terrible hot and I have managed to catch hay fever in about one day.
But, HEY! ITS HOME!

When I go out (to coffee bean... no coffee bean in UK and too many starbucks) I was taking a good look around.
Things seemsd to have changed alot, yet somethings don seem to change at all.

Coffee Bean is sitll the same, filled with all the pretty gals and cute guys hanging out in the open air looking cool and entertained chatting with friends.

The corner coffee shop is still the same, with the middle aged men sitting there, drinking their bottled tigers out of huge glass beer mugs that you can never seem to find in UK. The guy that I always used to see there is still there, His huge head and prominent eye sockets with his relatively small chin stills seem the same, but his face seems to have been drawn tigheter. It is as if someone grabbed the hair on the back of his head and tighetend his facial skin. He now looks like a skull covered with skin. I wanted to go foward to say hi to him, to tell him how nice it is to be back and to see him.

Nah, decided not to. He doesnt know me at all, and he may have seen me before, but thats about it. He will prob think I am nuts (which i might actually be). But his presence there reminded me that I was HOME, among the ppl that I grew up with, the ppl around that I hanged out with. The 'strangers' that I never spoke to, but never thought I would miss. Oh ya, wondered what happened to the indian guy that use to walk aroudn barefoot with his walking stick. He used to be able to even walk across broken glass without a wince on his face. Or the old man in the Toa Payoh bus stop that used to sell metal hooks(the tpye you use to hang up the bamboo poles for drying clothes) for a living.

Just realised that sometimes, we live our own lives and we don even know anything about the ppl that we meet so often, and we don really seem to care about them at all. Its only when we have been so far away from home that when we come back, we catch up with our friends and we also wonder how has the ppl that we used to see all the time is doing. Wherever they are, I hope that they are doing well.

Found this while clearing my old junk mail.
Someone sent it to me and well, I hope you have some fun staring at it.
there is a ball and a pyramid and I dont know what else, a cone I think.
Time for me to log off.

Okay
it may seem weird,
but those who get this should know what its all about......
I gave up trying to explain things 5 to 6 times every hour.....
Fingers will get repetative stress disorder.......

7/7
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8/7 OCY JB
8/7 GCK JB
8/7 JB IJ

9/7 VL
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9/7 SHY

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10/7 TWW

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13/7 MJ :VL GCK, OM ? R? LGY?

14/7 MJ :VL GCK, OM ? R? LGY?
14/7 LYM IJ
14/7 LYM IJ

15/7 SIS
15/7 SIS
15/7 SIS

16/7 SIS
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16/7 SIS

17/7 F (tentitavely)
17/7 F (tentitavely)
17/7 F (tentitavely)

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21/7 Bye bye.....

The SIA website is down again, or should I say STILL down. Have been trying so hard to check in via internet but it keeps saying that I cannot internet check in unless its less than 48 hours to my flight. Duh, like as if I cannot count. It is already less than 48 hours.

Keeping my fingers crossed. Got way too much luggage to check in and I hope they dont decide to surcharge me.
When my friend flew BA, they were horrible. He was only allowed 23kg check in and no hand luggage and they wanted to charge him 25 pounds for every excess KG, and their attitude was bad. I never had such problems with SIA so far and I hope it does not start now. Just had some rude ground staff thats all. Wonder why are they so mean to us? If BA was rude and stuff like that and quantas was racist (thats why I will never fly them again) that can be almost understandable. Some country bumpkin grew up in a mono colour village and never saw anyone that was of a different race. But to have SIA ground staff rude to us, I think that is amazing lor. They don seem to realise that Singapore is a multiracial country with NO indigenous white population. Sometimes I really question the mentality of these people. Wonder where in the world they grew up. Some little north sea island that no one has ever been to?

Anyways, will be collecting results later. Hope REALLY HARD that I will pass.

Am packing like mad.
Have been doing it for the past 2 days and still doing it now.
Argh
Actually inspired to write some things one, but got no time to work it out.
Also, just came back from the beach.
YESH!
The english channel.
We bo liao then drive there.
Then someone realised that he forgot something and we had to RUSH to his place to get it.(allen keys)
Fun.......
hehehe....
Quite a good adrenaline rush.
Go and drive a small MPV at 130 in rain and howling wind...
Car has a mind of its own one...
Skidded a few times but was not dangerous thouhg.
Just those that you get when you go too fast on a curve on a rainy road.
I strongly recommend those who have opportunity to try.
Its really fun.

YUCK!!!!!
there is a song called
chuang qian ming yue guang
by
Mei Yan Fang
on the radio now.
PUKE PUKE
ITS positively the WORST excuse of a song that I have ever heard.
Whats happened to 933 and its DJs?
All degenerated......
DJs so San Ba and the song selection totally sucks.....
Gosh, its almost as bad as Heart 106.2 here...
sian.
Anyways, got myself a new e-mail for blog stuff...
potatoe@london.com
Private e-mails still works, and I will still be using it. Just don want to use it on blog.
going to sleep liao.

think it finally appeared.
not going to bother to fine tune it
its like 5 am the the morning
damm
sun is up already.
shoots
still got important 'chat chat' later.

Argh!!!
I spent so long fiddling with the HTML for the template but nothing seems to have changed!!
ARGH!!!!
Wasted my time...
could have been lots more constructive..
and the 933 DJ was irriting the crap out of me.
He is SO annoying...